I have only two weeks left in Budapest and I have started to
prepare myself mentally to go back Finland. Some friends have also asked me about general
questions such as: what have been the best things in Budapest? what will you
miss the most? What you’ve learnt here? Etc. And I’ve noticed that it’s pretty
difficult answer to these kind of questions while I am still here. I think that
I can see this autumn semester and understand myself better later. However I tried
to think about these questions a bit and wrote something down...
What shall I miss?
My daily schoolway. It takes 10 minutes to walk to school
and I love this transition from my flat to school. 10 minutes time for mindblowing
and breathing the open-air. In my way to school there is a painting of huge
heart which reminds me everyday what’s the most important thing for human
being.
People. Absolutely. For me the hardest thing is to leave
behind all people I’ve met.
Cafes. I feel that when I walk along streets of Budapest I
always focus on to find different cafes. The sad story is that I won’t have
time (or many) enough to try every cafe which I would like to.
The View in the evening. Budapest is beautiful especially in
the night time. All those lights and bridges make me sigh deep. So beautiful.
And now in December the Christmas fairs of Budapest have brought the own cosy
atmosphere to the city.
Dance classes. They’ve been very instructive and quite different
(for better or worse). Dance was the reason I came here and it could be reason
for staying here.
What have I learnt?
Lot of things of myself. I feel that I’ve gone through a
little identity crisis. I’ve faced so many new things here so I probably had to
face also myself.
Dancing is my thing. During this semester I’ve many times
asked myself why do I dance. Everytime I end up this conversation by saying to
myself: I can’t live without dance.
How it feels to be stressed, ashamed, afraid and lonely. And
how to leave these emotions behind and decide to enjoy life. I’ve learnt
something about courageous.
I am very finnish who appreciate finnish things. I didn’t
know that before. Lol.
Furthermore I’ve also started to appreciate so many other
things what I have in my life. Most important my family and friendships. It’s
not a self-evidence that I live in wellness and have loving people around me.
What do I waiting for
when I go back to Finland?
First of all I am waiting for to see my family and spend
time with them. Peaceful, loveful and restful time. And of course because of
Christmas time I am waiting for all Christmas things. Especially christmasfood :D
Dark chocolate, mulled wine, mom’s vegetable pattys, finnish Christmas bread,
red apples, rice porridge…
Finnish language. Finally I can express myself orally well and
somebody understand my jokes. Or that I even tell jokes. I think I’ll be very social
person when I go back to Finland.
Helsinki. After New Year I will move to Helsinki to do my
internship. Helsinki has been my favorite city since I remember and I am pretty
excited to move there. Although at the same time it’s sad to leave Budapest
behind.
And some random dreams
for next year?
When I was child my dream was to be a baker. I’ve always
loved to bake but past two years I’ve been even more interested in about
coffee. Well, my dream is to be a barista. I could see myself making coffee art
all day long. Actually there are also some opportunities in Helsinki to have
some kind of barista education…
I will graduate (hopefully :D) next spring as a dance
teacher. But at this moment I would like to study dance more. I hope that next
year I could develop myself as a dancer somewhere, somehow.
Now when I am soon leaving from Budapest I am already
planning to come here again. It feels good to go back to Finland but when you
once go abroad (for longer time) you can’t stay in your home country the rest
of the life. I think life is too short to live only in the one place. So let’s conquer
the world.
- Jutta
