Stories from Budapest: Who do you think you are?

I’m believer 

Sometimes I believe the lies of the deceiver 

The lies of seeds when they sprout 

They lead to seasons of spiritual amnesia 

(According to God/Beautiful Eulogy)

My biggest fear is that somebody proves somehow that I am not able to be a dancer. That I don’t have good enough ability or I am wrong kind of dancer.  During the last week I realized how this fear limit myself in the dance classes. If I am constantly thinking what kind of imagine I give about myself to other people I’ll be nervous, unsure and can’t focus well. To be honest I often find myself thinking: What if I fail? What if I look stupid or clumsy?

I think that is not only my problem. If I try to view this topic as a outsider I would like to say something to the dancers.

Nobody can define who you are or what kind of dancer you can be. It’s your body, your mind, your unique personality. And it’s in your mind who do you think you are. The key is to process how to become best your self. You can learn from other people but you can never become someone else.

Maybe we can never know perfectly who we are. It’s everyday searching but will bear fruit: easier to make right decisions, more peaceful mind, even more energy to do things... And also easier to concentrate during the dance classes. In my opinion concentration is beautiful and way to learn well. Focused dancer naturally exopose himself/herself  and that’s the moment when people get little piece to sense who is he/she. But focused dancer dosen’t need to think what other people think about him or her. Just try, fail, try and succeed. The fail is sign that something has to correct and the succeed is just one step forward.

You will not always be strong
but you can always be brave.//Beau Taplin

- Jutta

Ps. During this weekend I went to yoga twice. The studio was hot and I sweated a lot :D. I like very much to do yoga, pilates or this kind of body-mind exercises. They don’t give me inner peace but they are good ways to develop for example concentration, breathing and body awarness.